How many times should we failed before advancing and
learning?. It is so devastating to see
how much I can hurt the ones I love. I
am human and I know I do have many flaws, sometimes I don’t feel deserving of
love because of the huge mistakes I make and the pain I cost to those I owe my
best. Then I remember what God tells me
in the bible and I wonder where I am going wrong. He loves me no matter what, He forgives me
even when I don’t consider myself deserving of His forgiveness, and He is
working towards my development even when I don’t see it. Why then is it so painful, why do I feel so
sad at failing Him and mines so often?
I might be one of those stubborn souls than its smart for
human things but not for spiritual things, but I am in this world to conquer myself
in the spiritual, to grow to the point where this human feelings will not be
the priority in my life, but His love and His peace, which I can only gather
from Him.
Everything is written and He knows what I am doing before I
do it. Why do I fail you Lord? I love my family so much, so why do I fail them
too? It hurts so much to feel myself so human and at the same time I know YOU
are working in me, I believe YOU won’t let me fall, I know I am learning and I
have faith everything will work out in the end.
Because just You know the why and when, and my job is to do
the best I can and keep moving. I can
only ask you for strength, don’t let me fall and not be able to stand up again
and keep trying. Give me a courageous
spirit that I might not fear but count with You, and if You are with me, who
can be against me! I leave my life to you and only YOU!
